What Was Isn't

See me, read me, please me. Let me know that you don't ever want to let go. Dreams that are caught and fights never fought. I see you in little things, in a song I remembered while I was high. I wish I knew who you are. I wish you wanted to know who I am. You are a wall built by years of mistrust and hurt. Vibes might kill and never die. You looked into my eyes and for a moment there you had me. Like blood being drained from a corpse, I had the feeling of euphoria. Maybe what was real wasn't and what was isn't. My thoughts are nothing but faded writing on the wall. Why can't I answer when you call? I'm confused about why the sun doesn't love the moon. I say your name and it hits like lightening. No matter the milligrams of pills, I overdosed on you. I was shot down quicker than a leaf being crushed on a autumn's day. Why must you play like a kitten with yarn? Why do you make my choices so hard? I walked this path before, heart set on another, and it left me destroyed and empty. I lost it all over a boy's shot call. I can't change what you think of me, for in the end, a future with you, I could never see.