When Will The Pain End?

When will this pain end... I dont know why I do this to my self. I care to much but dont get care enough about. Why? I really am ready for death to come and take my soul and my life with him to where ever he hides. I am tried of the pain and the demons that lurk near by and Im tried of hurting like this, can just once something good happen in life?? It seems that every thing I do is not good enough. Some times I feel like baby, if you have seen dirty dancing you know who Im talking about. But I just dont get why life has to be so damn hard, I try and try yet fail. I get pushed down and I get back up just to find my self on the cold ground again, I care to much. I never get cared for and that is why Im ready to take my own life and meet death on the other side. Why have I not done this yet you may ask? Because i know people need me. That the only reason why im still here, here and alone. I dont know how much longer I will be here but for now i am here for all the pain and hurt to get in side and lift off others, I will keep it with me when i go, But what i cant take with me is the problems that will come after. Those others will have to deal with them selfs i have showed them everything they need to know to work through there pain and hurt now i hope that they took it in. They dont even know that i am leaving this curl curl world. But when the time comes they will see and they will know i couldnt do it anymore and i just didnt have any one to care for me like i care for others. So when will the pain end??