who am I

always so bleak words i speak
English is basic as foreign man 
never entered secondary as planed
nothing I do seems to come trew
only if it's a fail r me chasing my tail
love I've got for many yet I remain
problems I created I remain in
nothing can I change I'm powerless to make real change
this drives me insane I try I fail
why can't I keep on and break these chains
didn't know I was so low yet days go by my hostel bed I do not move from
not to eat r drink barley to pee 
god u Gota hear me and recognise I'm not strong 
drag me from depths of were I am 
show me who I was r who I can be as I hate who I am