Who really wins?

I sat and thought, why am I the way I am
I put myself out there, so of course people are going to take advantage when they can
More disappointed then mad, flabbergasted you see
I try to forgive and understand, then I realize people aren't me
See I'm fast with my tongue and slick with my mouth 
Quick on my toes when I spit something out 
Tried to win every battle, never focused on the war
Don't think I never saw the big picture, I just never wanted to even the score,
In search of nirvana, salvation I found
You think you got over me, your turn will come around
A grudge I don't hold, I wish bad on none,
Games been over, who really won?