The whole Damn year

Tryin find a way to explain this
Why you can't touch me tonight?
I can feel you're getting impatient
But I really can't let you inside
Bad, how deep the pain is
Oh you just couldn't believe
And yes I'm good on the surface
But I'm a mess, 
I'm a mess underneath
Not tryin do this on purpose
Boy I really wish I could
Don't act like you never heard this
I know you haven't misunderstood
The others just wouldn't respect me
Don't tell me you use well
I thought we were heading for Heaven
But you're about to take me back to Hell
See winter took most of my heart
And Spring punched right in the stomach
Summer came looking for blood
And by autumn, I was left with nothing
It took a WHOLE DAMN YEAR to repair my body 
Its going to take a long long year for me to trust anybody