Why?

Why am I like this?
Why do you act like you care?
Why do you look and stare?
Why don't you help me?
Why can't you stay?
Maybe I should take your advice
and end it all today
Wouldn't that be nice?
Would that make you smile?
I know I'm a disappointment 
So please stop telling me how I failed
I get it I'm dumb
So stop telling me how you are smarter than me
Your goal is to bring me down
But I've already hit rock bottom
Can't you tell