why I cut

~~When I close my eyes,
When I’m done with the lies,
When nobody tries,
When nobody cares.
When pain engulfs me,
When horror runs free,
When dark’s all I see,
When I’m trapped by tears.

When there is no way,
When pain wants to stay,
When everything’s gray,
When I’m mad at life.
When I want to fall,
But won’t make the call,
When I’m crushed by all,
I bond with my knife.

That’s my life.