Wish You Were Here

It was a cloudy day
Yet the sun shone through
It was eerily beautiful
The day we lost you

I got called away from work
I headed to your place
I didn't know what happened
But I expected to see your face

I got to your house
I ran inside and looked around
I saw the whole family
But you were no where to be found

I wondered where you were
Someone said you'd died
I collapsed in a chair
I just sat there and cried

As the story unfolded
The room began to spin
You took your own life
You let your demons win

I was in shock
I was also in denial
I told myself it was an accident
I believed that for a while

The pain was too great
To think you chose to leave
I hid from the truth
Not allowing myself to grieve

I've finally come to terms
You died by your own hand
I'll never get over you
And I'll never understand                                                                                           

I don't know if I'll see you again
I don't know if you were saved
I can't tell from the life you lived
I can't tell from the way you behaved

Now I'm in the anger stage
I'm so mad at what you've done
You weren't at my wedding
And you'll never meet my son

You're missing everything
That's what hurts the most
I've got to accept it though
And stop being angry with a ghost

I lost more than a father
I lost my best friend
I know you can't read this
But I want to pretend

You're not looking down on me
You don't know how I feel
I'm left with this hole in my heart
A hole that will never heal

I miss you so much
I hold all of your memories dear
I love you daddy
And I wish you were here