Woman or Is there anything I would change?

It all started with a chat message that became something more.

I remember waking up and you telling me that you wanted to see me

At six o’ clock in the morning, two days before Labor Day.

Something felt different about that message.
Like if I accepted it, things were going to change.

But I wanted it to change for the better.

I decided that it was time to start letting loose a bit

Be more like the person I knew I was.

It had been a while since we had done something exciting

When you saw what I had left for you,

You were all ready to find out what I had in mind.

I picked you up and you got on board the rig.

The feelings between us were definitely at the surface

Regardless of what other desires were there.

There you were, dressed in that black shirt and skirt.

Looking even more beautiful than I had ever seen you before.

My heart felt like it wanted to burst out of my chest.

It was like seeing you for the first time all over again.

The ride to my pickup was beyond our usual repertoire.

Instead of the usual flirting and conversations

Something felt more personal than it ever had before.

Which only made what was to come all the more exciting.

From the moment you I looked into your eyes

I felt something different, something that I told me to

Be yourself, you don’t have to hide from me.

Even though that day started out as one thing...

It quickly turned into an adventure for us.

From the way truckers looked at you

To some things best left unsaid.

But truth be told, I was glad

To have you with me on my run.

It was the first time you had been out of the area

Besides heading to Vegas and going wild.

At first you did not know how to handle it at all.

It was like I dragged you on a slowboat to China

And you were never coming back.

But to be honest, I could tell you were having some fun.

Even if you did not want to admit it to me immediately.

At least we had the chance to find a place to stay for the night

It could have been a lot worse, we could have ended been

Stranded on the side of the road.

But it felt right to have you there beside me

Travelling up the coast, the sun setting into the Pacific

It was something I always wanted to do with you…

In a car rather than the truck .

There were a lot of wonderful memories about that trip

From how it began to even the fact that we took a moment

to take time for ourselves when the situation called for it.

I could go on and continue telling the story but I think

That it is best to leave it here and explain myself to you.

So many things have happened over the course of a few years

But I still go back to that moment we caught each other’s eye

One night at a Club in Costa Mesa.

Would I want to go back and change anything at all?

To be honest: The answer would be no.

It is about the journey and how you got there

Rather than trying to find blame in who did what.

Sometimes we have to take a moment to look back.

Before we can look forward and see what it is we have.

I really don’t have any regrets about that brief encounter

Because I am glad to have met the woman I fell in love with now.

Rather than the “girl” for who I only met briefly in a crowded place.

I don’t think we would have gotten past that night.

Adonis was still there and I still had my wounds to heal from.

So much has happened since that club and even that road trip.

Too much that even when things are bad, I still find myself

Wanting to weather the storm with you.

I don’t know if that makes me crazy or just plain stupid.

Personally, I think it makes me more of an optimist.

Granted you have your wounds from your campaigns against him

And I have mine from the various others that have come and gone.

Some of those wounds are hard to heal from.

But I am still here even when there were times I could have bugged out.

Even from the continuous onslaught of Adonis’ campaigns of intimidation

Or those times where the situation got too much and drove one of both of us

To a place that there could have been a point of no return.

But even now we are fighting to keep us together rather than fall apart.

I would not trade this journey for anything at all.

Because no matter how many problems we run into

Or we allow those problems to get the best of us.

Know that you are not alone, and it’s okay to lean on me.

Sometimes it is better to have someone there to keep you on the right path

Rather than think you take the worst option and just cause more chaos.

We have both been guilty of that.

I keep thinking of that John Lennon and Yoko Ono song, “Woman.”

Especially the lyrics about a man’s Mixed Emotions, Thoughtlessness

Or how we never mean to cause those we love sorrow or pain.

I think about that a lot when I see how much you listen to me.

I think all of us men are guilty of that when it comes to those we love.

I look forward to when this storm passes and I can tell you how much

I love you.

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