Won't stop fighting

 Before my daughter was born or even in my stomach i had lost this thing called hope,
 A future of truly living life was no where in my sight,
  The devil had me so tightly rapped in his rope,
Each time I tried to escape he grabbed that rope and made it extra tight.
 
 The day I found out I was pregnant I truly knew that I had to change,
 But that damn devil kept tugging at my sleeve,
  Keeping me so closely in his view and close range,
   Without a doubt I knew I had to get out of his ropes and make him leave. 
 
 This thing the devil brought into my life called addiction though isn't so easy to escape,
  And without me reaching out and admitting to having a problem he was winning the battle,
   Until the day I turned to the man upstairs and asked him to help me to no longer be afraid.
 
   My higher power pointed me in the direction of a women who only wants to see me succeed,
   For the first time I found myself admitting my truths about my addiction and asked for any and all help so that I could be the mom I want to be,
   The moment the lady started pointing me in all the right directions and getting me in some much needed programs I knew from the devil's grip I was being set free,
 
   Three days after seeking the help I need I was airlifted to UC Davis and my daughter was born, 
  I thought I had asked for help with enough time to get right before I was due,
  Enough time to prevent my life from feeling so torn,
    I was supposed to still be pregnant for three more months but thats not what happened and now I'm living again a nightmare I never thought that once again I'd been going through. 
  
   They say my reunification they are going to tell the judge they recommend to bypass,
  For my past has now been thrown in my face as if I don't live with my choices from then everyday,
   The devil has been trying to come back and trying to get me to pick up that glass,
     Trying to convince convince me to just go numb to give up hope and run away.
 
      There's this women inside me who isn't going to let anything stop me from fighting this fight,
    It's not at all easy keeping my head above the water and not allowing the negative things said fill me with fear,
    You see though my love for my daughter is one like no other and her coming home is all that's in my sight.
   I will continue to prove myself and not give up I will show that my willingness and desire to do right to 100% sincere.