"Work for God"

"No one else,
except God can see,
what resides,
deep within me,
that's one of the reasons,
why I write,
so I can try to describe,
what is my light.

After 15 years of active addiction,
I think it's time for me to be happy,
I've punished myself enough,
now it's time,
that I be free,
of my own misery,
because self pity,
never got me anywhere,
except lock, stock, barrel,
glued to my bed,
using drugs,
until I ended up dead.

Now I will try living instead,
say goodbye,
to my own funeral,
and with this journal,
that I pray helps,
all of you,
I know with this Work for God,
I can be happy,
with what I am giving,
because I don't want any of you,
to make my mistake,
and think drugs,
were or are really needed,
because true healing,
only comes,
if Jesus's Words are truly heeded."