You did this

I never knew how hard it would be
To tell the world my truth
The things that you had done to me
Your control and the abuse 

I thought when I reported it
I'd get help and some support 
But there's no justice in the system
No help when you report

Now I'm sat here waiting
You breached the conditions yet again
But I'm the one left suffering
While you lie and you pretend

The sympathy comes flooding in
But not for me but you
The one that hurt my entire being
Whose lies people think are true

But that's what men like you do
You lie and manipulate
It's me who is left suffering
Whose been left here in this state

I trusted you and you used it
To hurt me again and again
And now I struggle to let anyone in
I can't even trust so called friends 

I can sit here holding my head up
Knowing that I haven't done any wrong
But it doesn't help when I'm left thinking 
After the terrible days are done

It wasn't enough to break me
Mind body and soul
You continue to hold the power
You continue to stay whole

I'd hate you but I just don't have the energy
To fight this on going fight
But what choice do I really have though
I've​​​​​​ got to do what's right

I'm hoping that karma finds you
In the rock you lie beneath
That the world will one day see through you
And there will be belief 

It won't help fix the broken bits
Or the damage that lies within 
The thoughts and images in my head
When someone touches my skin

I never thought I'd be stupid enough
To go through this again
But I guess that's all life has for me
An endless cycle of pain

I hope you know what you've done to me
I doubt you even care
But the truth remains you know it too
And that will always be there

I just hope one day I can trust again
And this time not be let down
I won't run away like I always do
This time I'm sticking around

Running away solved nothing
A lesson i have learnt
I just hope I can love again
A love that won't leave me burnt