Your Power

The power you have over me isn’t anyway close to fair,
               Sometimes I don’t even know why I still bare
I sit awake unable to sleep and at this point even eat,
               I feel like at any moment, and sometimes I hope, my heart takes its final beat
What you’ve made me into is someone I don’t know,
               I even ask, is this even your final blow?
Even though it may have been the last physical one,
               I know when I’m alone it still isn’t done
I ask myself “why?” more times then I should or care to at this point,
               Even though I know it break every single one of my bones to the joint
I was fine without you until I knew this was the final move,
               Still I feel as if I have something to prove…
They say time always fixes everything, but sometimes I don’t want it too,
               I feel as you took everything from me like a bank and withdrew
I can’t listen to music without certain notes reminding me of what we were,
               Now I simply ask myself, “why did it have to be her?”
The power I know will go away with time like they said,
               But as time goes on now, the more I feel I have bled
I’m sick of how I’m tearing myself down on your part,
               I guess I feel as if I deserve it, like I don’t deserve my own heart…
Then again… it was you who didn’t,
               Everyone says so, but to me it felt like you did… but obviously shouldn’t
The power, like a hulking demon taking my away my strength,
               That power I know will run its length
For one day we may be friends,
               That won’t happen until this feeling descends
I have the greatest people by my side, those who I know will over grow what power you control,
               Those people are the ones, not you, that make me in the end whole
So how does it feel to know that this kingdom I built for you will crumble?
               For me, and the people that care for me and I to them, are going to make you regret everything you ever did with me, we will rise and your new “king” will tremble.