Change

There is changing so much right now. I have never been good with change so as a normal person I am looking for something formulier and for me that is depression. Someone told me I am proud of you and I cried so hard. Just because I am so scared all the time. There was one time my mom told me I could take the bus and maybe it is stupid but I got scared. I am always looking for a safe place and when I get that I never want to let it go because what if I will be alone again. I just realized that I care so much for the things I love. I am afraid of losing them I get so scared and because of that I get so sad that laying in bed all day is more exhausting than anything else. But the thing is I did it. I bet depression maybe not fully but fare enough. I am still here and maybe that is enough. I am so happy that I am still here. I am so proud of myself maybe that is selfish.
 

I am proud of you and that is enough.