That scream

There are different kind of screams. The happy scream the scared scream the heartbroken scream and the angry scream. But there is one scream nobody tells you about because you will never forget it. It goes through every nerve in your body. It is the scream someone makes when someone pushes them down and does that one thing where you can not talk about. Because then you are weak because you didn’t do anything. You will get these stupid questions like why didn’t you scream or why didn’t you do anything. I will try to explain. The moment someone touches when you don’t want it and you say no and they don’t listing. You feel so small you try to fight it but he is to strong. He knew exactly what he needed to say because you told him that because you trusted him. You told him everything down till the last thing. You even loved him. And then you realis that it was all a lie. You are so in pain and you are so betrayed. that you can’t do anything not like you could anyway. Because he has your hands above your head and is holding you down with his body. You want to scream but your body does not let you then the silent most painful scream comes out. The only thing you can do is cry and pray that this will end and hope nobody hears anything. I just thoughted in needed to close my eyes seconds. And then the worst nightmare stared.