Lost little girl

I learned at a young age of 6 that life isn't a great as people say it is... it's hard growing up... it's hard living life... I grow up in a broken home. Not seen or heard by anyone... but hit and yelled at by everyone... only had one friend in my life and he ment alot to me. He keep me safe at school and he made sure I was ok... he would walk me home every day after school and he would even walk me to school... middle school came around and we were still really close... but that didn't last long... the second year of middle school he started dating this mean girl who didn't want me around anymore... and i tried really hard to stay by his side. But lost that war... so for two years of my life I was 100% alone... he came back into my life... but he wasn't the same as befor... he was colder, he didn't have the kindness in his eyes like he used to... he was mean and he was hateful. I still tried my best to help him back up and I fell for him... I loved him for ten years before he fell for me... and in the end... it wasn't even real. He was just using me. He would hurt me For his own joy... he would play mean mind games For three years. I tried with him for three years I gave up everyone and everything for him... but I still failed... and became alone in the end... he took everything from me... after watching me grow up in pain and loneliness he left me too... he broke me back down to nothing after I did my best to be strong I was still weak... he left when I needed him most... I was so scared and so alone. But then I found someone... they are not perfect by no means but... he tries, and he works hard... he is kind and sweet. He loves me for me. Not someone I'm not. But I still find myself thinking about you... as if he isn't here... but he is... your not!! He loves me, you dont. He works things out with me... he doesn't run when it gets hard like you do... I'm glade I found him... I just with I would have found him before you.... I do miss you as a friend because you were my best friend... but I don't miss you like I used to and day by day I'm getting over you... it's taking forever and part of me doesn't want to forget you... but it's for the best I have a daughter to be strong for!! This is just one small chapter in my life... and I am still living and making more memories for my life... your just a fading memory that's all!