my life is crap

i guess it all started when i was 4 when my father was put in jail for rape he had abused me before even bitten me at times

it is most likely he raped me too at least that's what my mom says i told my counseler  and there was some evidence he did but i was only 4 so they couldnt put him away for mine then my world was turned upside down  when my mom told me and my sister we were moving to arizona my grandma promised she would help take care of me but di she? no she did not she also didnt tell my mom we would have to give up  our family dog but sure as shit we did one time my cousin threw a staple gun at my moms head a big hugh fight was on we had a dog harry at this time who bit my cousin during the fight then my aunt showed up my cousins mom so mad so full of hatred at mom

started washing dishes i remember thing should we be here while shes washing sharp objects the whole fight started over my mom trying to sell somthing at grandmas yard sale she was told to sell did grandma come to my moms defense fuck no she loved bonny the best there was also a fight between my aunt (same one) about my mom making the mashed potatos for a family dinner she wanted grandmas potatos my  moms are better by the way and my aunts potatos are no where near as good my grandpa who always said i was his favorite died when i was 13 my school life was horrible i had only one teacher i was pretty good with her name was mrs.clark in high school

my grandma constantly treatened to kick us out over not wanting to feed her dogs people food she had 6 pomeranians 2 of them i could sware were satan and satan jr.

mean little shits they were they peed all over the house we constantly stepped in it  my grandma once through a cup at my mom i picked up the cup and chucked it at my grandma so much other crap shedi that hurt me damaged me my sister is no better she wont talk to us because of my father we went to her wedding a couple years back and she said she would do our hair makeup and get us dresses but she didnt barely spent anytime with us we ended up missing the  ceremony because she told us to follow  the limo we started to then it bolted 80 miles an hour  and we lost themtried to get directions but no one could tell us exactly were it was a lot of crying from my mom there a lot of drama my family doent care about or love me except my mom i guess thats why i take such a likeing to the celebritys i care about  iand you wonder why i have behavioral/mental problems i was also raped more recently by some guy who lived where i lived awhile back so much other crap  ive  told my mom when i die im not going to hang with my family im going to be hanging with my favorite celebritys who have died as well period end of story

this story is about my life and is 100% true