The War Within Me

Over the years Ive learnt a hell of alot on how I could beat with my mental Illness, I started by remembering everything that created it in the first place Ive learnt now how to cope with my past by accepting you can't forget, by accepting the way i am now isn't my fault the bad choices i made wasn't either, so many years i felt trapped in a war against myself, demons I had to face head on just to see myself staring back, I realised it was a battle I would never win, so I stopped fighting to forget and started fighting to remember again as I knew I couldnt let my past define me through the persona it was projecting me through.
I eventually did let go of all the bitterness, anger & sttubborness and finally became content in who I truly was, I began to feel at peace with myself again, but I must say one of the hardest battles I faced was learning to forgive myself.
 I now laugh at the persona that once tried to depress, seclude and destroy me, cause now ive learnt to sperate my personas from one another aswell as my individual self by literally talking back to it.. by doing this I  initionally remember whats real....MY VOICE out loud in the open not the one trapped inside, cos thats the one that matters the one that makes me feel positive about life, my voice makes me friends, it makes my family known they are loved, it makes me memories I will cherish forever, it makes people laugh so they can love life but yes I can still hear that voice in my head... but I can also hear the trees outside, people laughing walking past, children playing in the street, I can hear life all around me, and for the first time in a very long time I feel alive again✨