"A Body Abandoned"

"I can't feel these fingers,
that now write out my shame.
Maybe it's from both,
of those strokes,
or sticking my hands,
in the same flames,
I knew would bite me,
I just didn't know when,
and after all,
those drugs,
did almost win,
but I am left,
so near to death,
for thinking was fun,
to start using crystal meth.

I abandoned my body,
now it's abandoning me,
as as I cry,
through sore, red eyes,
a future I still see,
but only if I give up,
playing pretend,
asd a ghost,
whose zombie like movements,
are motivated by obtaining,
that drug,
a parasite,
living off of me,
as the host.

Us as addicts,
have the same choice to make.
Use and be fake,
and break, everyone's hearts,
or have the strength and courage,
to give our life a new start,
the one that the drugs,
has torn completely apart.

So how about we make peace,
with the pain,
and give a chance,
to trying to change,
because honestly,
what is there to lose,
except the life you do not live,
and instead of being selfish,
and always taking,
why not,
let's try to give,
and put a smile,
on another's face,
and finally stop being bad children,
and accept God's Loving Grace?"