A letter

                        I felt so numb  to watch you cry I almost forgot where I was .A motherless boy without being an motherless boy...I ache for you. You are enough, you are loved, you are wanted even if you dont want it to be me....and I wont  stop.  I ask that the grass gets greener for you, I  ask that you love yourself more, and I ask that you remember our conversation that we had in a fancy hotel bed made for two...and meant for one. I ask that you always remember that you are more then meets the eye. I'll pray to whatever God you believe in..and tell him to tell you that your worth it.
                        I  never felt so numb to watch you fall apart as I broke moments before you...how peaceful you look in that red sofa breathing..how I love that boy..you. How salty my tears taste, how numbing I became and how my head hurts. If we stop talking ...I hope that you stay breathing even if its not always a refreshing breath of fresh air. Sometimes its like that, but God I'd lose myself if you lost it all. 
                  I felt so numb to watch you cry I almost forgot where I was. But I? will never stop caring, loving, or wanting you even if you push me away because you think you deserve it. I know that you feel alone but I am too.

A room for two, meant for one,And a bed made for you not me.................................