A Letter To My Mom

Dear Mom,
The woman who gave birth to me 
This is what I received 
Im 17 now it’s crazy I thought you’d be proud 
I’m becoming famous I know you heard all about it 
It’s really hitting me I don’t know if you love or you hate me 
Mom!, this is crazy 
You wouldn’t know cause you never talk to me 
Not a hi or good bye 
Not a text or a phone call, PLEASE TELL ME WHY ?
I’m about to be 18  
And you still want nothing to do w ith me 
They keep saying that you do love us mom, that you do love me 
That’s not what I see 
You haven’t been apart of my life 
You didn’t know that I woke up every day feeling I wanted to die 
You weren’t there when I lost my first tooth 
You probably don’t care right, what’s it to you 
They keep saying happen to you when you were younger 
But you’re still supposed to be there, you’re supposed to be my mother 
The same man that layer next to you 
He put his hands on me too 
I’m traumatized to this very day 
I didn’t know what to do or what to say 
But I also knew it wasn’t okay 
If I said anything about that man you guys would say it was a lie, never took the chance 
To UNDERSTAND
 I was SEXUALLY ABUSED 
I bet you knew 
You knew he physically abused us mom but what did you do 
Touched by a man who wanted me to call him dad 
3 Or 4 years old which made it sad 
Would tell me I look just like his daughter 
And wanted to be my father 
Would touch me at night 
Would lay hands on my body, No MOM IT WASN'T Right 
You could have packed our stuff to leave 
But there was no movement you see 
Knew men you’d bring into our lives 
Maybe 1 or 2 on the side 
You never has the chance to tell your story 
What’s the difference between you and me 
Yes my dad did come to get us 
The man chased you everywhere in a rush 
Mom you took a turn you could have gotten us back 
You Lacked 
You lacked needs  
I grown the next woman to be 
My rainy days were hurricanes mom because you never came you stayed away 
And Jean did not replace 
She took the spot of a mother’s place 
And not just me but us 5 
And I cant believe I’m still alive 
I have nightmares of that man 
Cry in my sleep and wake up scared 
Mom do you Care? 
When I become somebody is that when you’re gonna be there 
People will love and miss you when it’s beneficial 
PLEASE DO NOT SHOW UP MOM BECAUSE I WILL DISMISS YOU 
I’m not a baby nomore it was time to grow up 
Sincerely, your daughter Morneè thanks birth Mother for giving up