A Lie

We go into a room a bright filled room

A bed is still and waiting,

I go down and pass the tongue,

Is this right? 

Am I suppose to be doing this without a doubt?

Innocence snatched right from my skin,

My soul feels nothing,

Lies, cover ups, from family ties

Not trusting who watches my daughter

I cant trust anyone with her,

My innocence was taken in a blink of an eye,

We didn't know what we were doing,

Embarrassment is in the lead,

No one knows my secret,

 I cry in my sleep,

In my heart, 

Covered in hated and love,

They battle each other,

My mind is wondering I can't stop and think,

My innocence wasn't suppose to be taken I think,

It replays in my mind now that I'm older, 

My whole life is messed up its out of order

Im happy,

A Lie