Rain

Rain with little droplets of thunder echoing in my mind as I walk,
It runs freely and goes as it pleases making muddy puddles in the dirt,
Rain with little droplets of thunder?
Why are you so loud when you hit the windshield ,
The sound projecting through the sound of music playing in the car,
Your so free to do anything where you flow,
crashing into things that cant withstand your blow,
I wish I had your courage and current to talk easily,
The power to talk without being sorry all the time
I'm weak,
My voice is a stream its not a raging waterfall 
I have little words to speak, 
In return I write poetry,
If I speak I might say the wrong thing, 
I end up in a puddle of rain water,
As it gets deeper I'm swimming to keep my head above
Drowning,
Silence creeps over the dark pool I am engulfed in,
Sinking with the sound of thunder above,
With droplets of water pounding on the surface,
 I sink forever;its holding me down,
Within,
Rain with little droplets of thunder echoing in my mind,
Its cold no wind
Sleep,
Forget,
Don't Swim