A Word To My Mate

So this is a word to my mate
Last couple years has been so great
Remember when we started getting close 
Because we started walking in the same way
Because we knew the strength of our faith 
Church on a Sunday
Then church on a Tuesday 
Then we will walk out of service 
Asking God to help us to do this
This meaning life 
This meaning knowing how to sacrifice
Sacrifice our lives 
So God could make us shine

Quick word to my mate
Did you know I still pray for you every single day?
Remember them sad nights, 
We would have long conversations about life
Talking about getting right with Christ
But still wanting to be cool on the outside 
We loved the parties 
But couldn't help but plead for mercy before bedtime
We were the same people shouting God's sees out hearts
Yet gossip about the next girl that spreads her legs wide apart
Wide apart for you
Wide apart for them 
And I'm the same friend that would laugh
When you show me a snap of her
Crying in bed
About how she thought you loved her
Then judge her for the actions she did back then 
What a great friend but such a bad woman

Another word to my mate
Remember when I would stand by your side 
Watching you, Watch your boys 
Live the road life
And a tear would fall from my eye
Being on the phone to you 
While you explained another guy, you know, has died
You told them,
"There is always another way my guy"
Telling them,
"You got talent, come studio with me sometime."
You always saw the best in everyone 
And that's why you're such a lovable guy
You said, " R.I.P" one too many times
White T's locked up in a suitcase
Buried underneath your bed
I know you hate to look at them
It just reminds you of all the faces that are dead
And I'm sorry my friend 
I'm sorry the cycle will never stop 
I'm sorry these guys don't understand the tear of a gunshot

Just one word to my mate
Maybe just one sentence 
Let me ask you one question? 
Nothing about you
Just wanna ask if mum's okay?
You see your mum is my mum 
And I gave her that role 
When I became mates with her son 
How's your brother doing?
Is your sister holding up with the kids?
Yeah,
Sorry for not asking all of this
Must of been in my mind but slipped 
I forget sometimes you got a lot shit to deal with
But it's only because you always look like you have everything together
And I'm sorry my jigga
I'm sorry if you felt that you were by yourself with no help
This life game is so messed up 
I can hear your silent shouts right now

Please listen to my last words mate
It's funny because the word mate wasn't a word I used on a day to day
Definitely not for you
It was either bro or my family times two
And everybody knew
And It's crazy because as soon as life started to intrude 
You and I started to move 
Move differently 
From speaking everyday to once in the blue 
Sad to think I could be losing my family to life's unarranged issues
You got people that need you more than I do 
But that doesn't mean our friendship needs to fall apart too
You talk about needing space 
Space to deal with things in your life 
Space because it's now your time
Your time to do things for yourself 
But how are you meant to tell me that?
When all I know is being there for every feeling you felt 

Just one word to you, my mate 
Yes, were about to go our separate ways 
But I will still check up on you 
Even if you don't do the same,
Thank you mate
*Correction bro*
Just before you go
If you need your space 
Please don't hesitate
You have my permission to take as long as it takes 
Just want you to know 
Hope you find what you're searching for 
Now you may go on your way.