HE wasn't HIM

You were the him that used her to make me hurt 
Only to come back on a "serious" thing 
Saying, 'you were childish, lets try me this work'
Only to lie through your teeth 
Talking about "I'm going to treat you like a princess" 
Why was I so naive? 
Why did I look pass all that deceit?
You will get angry when I didn't do as you please 
You would beat me until I couldn't breathe 
Watch me as I start to bleed 
Then leave me until I finally found my feet 
To come and say 'You love me'
Because according to you 
It's my fault you did all those mean things 

You were the him that stopped me on multiple occasions from having a kid 
Telling me, ' you ain't ready for all that father shit'
Only because you weren't ready to pay for the lifestyle it brings 
You were the him that saw me bleeding, throwing up and being sick
After dropping me at the clinic to abort it 
Our kid 
Only to tell me, " fix up you little bitch" 
Belittled me down 
To only turn back around and say, "Babe I feel horny, throw it back for me real quick"
And expect me to obey 
As the pool of my tears get thicker 
I'm in a daze 
" No one will love you like I do" 
My life was a maze 

Never did I imagine finding a he that wasn't you 
When I finally knew who he was 
I finally knew enough was enough 
I deserved a life that wasn't so fucked 
He showed me I'm worthy to be someone's wife 
Not some door mat to someone's son 
"I'm going to treat you like a princess" 
It felt so real after so long 
So for Him
You will only get what's coming to you 
But to, He that wasn't Him, I say 
Thank You