(A Young Man) Ashamed of Feeling Embarrassed

Ashamed but...
Maybe he half- wanted attention-
Trying to overcome embarrassment
And self- consciousness-
The insecurities of a
Young man:
Wanting to hold his head high,
Rather than look down
At the ground whilst walking,
Wanting not to feel a need
To hide away.
Or feel ashamed.
He’d never had a girlfriend
Or known intimacy
Nor overcome certain inhibitions.
Revealing though
His feelings through
His poetry- personal thoughts.
He felt uncomfortable at work
And inadequate elsewhere.
Bottom of the class
At school he'd been.
Overly dependent.  Needy
A disappointment as a son.
Insecure.
He felt a sense of guilt
About so much.
His faults on show for all to see.
Laughed at in the past.
Made to feel bad.
Maybe he shouldn’t care:
But just feel humble instead:
Do his best.
Try his best.
Be his best.
And not care too much-
Or worry-
About what others
Thought of him.
The insecurities of a young man
Ashamed to be feeling embarrassed.

MDC