Amplified Thoughts

As I lay in bed at night
And take a deep breath in,
My thoughts begin to whirl away 
And the questioning begins.

What is the real reason?
What is life supposed to be?
Are these thoughts a common thing? 
Or is this all just me?

It doesn't get me down at all,
That Ive always felt incomplete.
I just will never love this world,
Full off cruelty, abuse and deceit.

I've known for a long time now
That My thoughts are not quite sane,
Yet its somehow made me who I am,
An it reforms happiness from pain.

It's hard for people to understand,
What goes on inside my mind.
But everybody thinks too much,
That it seems to make them blind.

The fact is we are all unique,
An see things differently.
But who are you and I to say,
What should really be?

I know myself, deep down its true,
That we don't have to apprehend 
What the true meaning of life is 
As it won't matter in the end.