Awful Winter

All I want to do is disappear
Into the abyss just like a shadow
Forever just a worn out memory
That no one even thinks about
A face that they don't really remember
With a name that they can't quite recall
I'm so used to being hated anyhow
That anything else would feel strange to me 
I am always falling thru' the hopelessness
Like a stone in the winter wind and cold
Until I strike the frozen earth
Dead and icy cold
And tho' I attempt to peel away the darkness
To find some kind of light and warmth
I remain the pariah evermore
In an awful winter storm