Baldur, The One Who Feels Nothing

 I need you one more time my old friend. I can no longer take a pain I did not create. She has left me spiritless. I tried to take my transformation and make it a reality. I want out. Everything thing is just dying roses and deformed bubbles popping. I walked through hell with a smile. I saw her as a bride. A cure to any and every disease possible. I watched as she left my heart without consequence. I felt too weak. Inside it she was an atom she made up everything. Now I’m terrified. Ive been without a soul too long. To have it back is to have you near me. For so long I thought you lived inside of me. I was wrong, you love the inside of me. So you stay. I’m hurting. I may not have much time left. To self destruct is to tear down the place that holds my pain dear. Even if it’s my own mind. So as I lay here cutting myself into every word In this poem don’t worry. I want to cut her out my life til I bleed out. So my death will give birth to someone whose never felt more alive. So please hold me til the world ends. Like the river I flow and crash but lately you’ve always been the rock I’ve crashed into over and over as if it’s meant to be that way. I cry with happiness cause though you’re not electric, you’re a blanket that keeps me warm. I would search the stars to be with you. Take me back please I beg you. Take me back to that place where you’d hold me close. Cause I want to stay this time. I want save my tears for the happiest days of my life. I know you’ll be right where I left you. In my dreams, and my heart. Baldur, Payton, or known as my best friend you’ve always made the happiest person on earth. And I know whoever doesn’t make me happy you’ll make their life a living hell. For they have hurt someone you love as dear to you as they love you dear to them. And for you see them happy again you would move the mountains. You would sculpt a new universe for them. But I as of today I only ask of you to just take care of the person my death would give birth to. For he will do everything you’ve did and would do for me. I love you, my best friend.