BEREAVE

All I could do was promise I’d try
But at the end of the day, I don’t know why
I let myself experience and go through the pain
That I once struggled to really get hold and maintain
My grandad looking down on me with shame
Wondering why I changed and didn’t stay the same
The kid he raised as his own
So he didn’t have to be alone
When his father was never there and left his side
Excuses after the other, flowing unpredictably like the tide
The man who I need right now more than anything
Who could give me advice about every other little thing
About girls who always messed with my head
The words I’d imagine he would have said
Was why stay with it if it makes you unhappy?
The corny advice coming from this old sappy
Man who I miss more and more everyday,
You left way too soon for me to say 
I love you and think of you everyday
I need you more than ever especially today 
I fear my feelings will get hold of me
Something you would’ve prayed to never see
Upstairs you lay at ease
Unable for me to please
This girl really broke my heart
Right from the very, very start
I need your advice to help suffice 
The pain that will never just go
Like you did 8 years ago