Blackout

I trip on my own feet, I have no control of how I feel
I want to make love with the girl next to me
I hate my selfish bitch of a sister
Who only cares about her own self achievements
As I continue to bleed upon my aging parents
As I am the black sheep, I am the loser
Though I am the talented one, full of imagination
Of feelings, of compassion, of desperation
I drink for distruction, for intoxication, for separation
I have taken the last drops of memory
I love, but I hate, i live but I want to be dead 
Over my head in debt to those who have loved me
I am known as the heartbreak kid
I want to forget who I ever have been
My car excels in speed, I find myself in a mad dream 
And I black out the truth til the bullet takes me to hells end