Bottled Emotions
You birth me but that doesn’t give you the right to hurt me.  Call yourself a mom but you’re not worthy.
I cry you beat me like you don’t want me.
Well why did you keep me?
Left me alone for hours while you chased a high.
Mama why?
A child should never endure so much pain.
Therapy and medication I damn  near went insane.
They said I need a higher dosage all I wanted was love.
A mother not an enemy.
But through it all I wanna thank you.
Without you I wouldn’t be the person I am today.Â
Strong, independent, sometimes timid.
Made my dreams reality, with the way you raised I should’ve been a casualty.
After all you did I still love you like it never happened.
You know it’s never too late to take action, make amends.
All I wanted was a friend, protector.
You have a granddaughter now, promise I’ll never neglect her. Sad thing is she looks just like you ma.
Seeing her makes me tear, wishing you were here.Â
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Comments
Heartbreaking and brave poetry.
very big of you indeed for seeming to see the conflict of your pain and your mother's struggles.
thank you for sharing, a lot of people out there will feel much less alone. (Hopefully)
Truly great write
Thank you ?? I try to paint a picture beautiful or ugly as long as it’s vivid.
So incredibly sad but a very good read.Â
“You have a granddaughter now, promise I’ll never neglect her. Sad thing is she looks just like you ma.”  -  making sure you give your child something you never had yourself is the best way of knowing they will never feel the same way you did. And having your daughter look exactly like your mother can be an everyday reminder to do the best you can. I have no doubt that you are!
Lots of love.Â
Kate x
awww thank you so much I will be the best I can be for her sake.
Wow that powerful thanks for sharing I can't begin to imagine the life you've lived and i won't even try but to write this poem for all to see it's good to read you pulled yourself around some parts of this really hit home because i grew up feeling alone yes mother was cruel to me but the most hurtful part of In my life for me was my dad didn't respect me for meÂ
Thank you and I pray you prosper. These things can be a blessing in disguise.Â