Captured

You act surprised when I act out, you know my past but still have doubt.

I tell you again and again, if you’re with me, you’re on a sinking ship. 

You know what I’m all about, but you still remain aboard, choosing constantly to pout. 

I want to change, but I cannot hide from who I truly am, so I must accept myself.

You don’t have to accept shit, I question everyday while you’re still on our ship. 

I belong and remain amidst violent waters, along with my families sons and daughters. 

You see a silver lining, you see a little light, it’s an illusion, I don’t have the might.

I know who I am, I accept myself, you deserve better, I don’t have the strength to fight. 

You refuse to listen, you refuse to hear, I fear our future and where I’ll lead you. 

I cannot continue to climb, I cannot continue to fall, I rather just remain.

You deserve the sky, you deserve the world, I know neither I can provide. 

I belong to my hell on earth, you dance with the angels amidst the present heavens. 

You still need guidance, you are naive and young, I’m not capable nor familiar with love.

I don’t deserve your earth, nor your wind’s breeze or your soul’s fire.

You cannot see or feel what it is I know, you cannot let go, your grip is forever tight.

I feel guilty, I feel ashamed, I wish I could change, but forever we both know I’ll remain!
 

Forever and ever, you will allow and I will accept, forever and ever we both refuse to neglect our sad love song…