DEAR DAD

Dear dad,
it's very sad,
to tell you that;
please don't be mad,
and play with my feeling like cheshire cat.

Your words stabbed my heart thousands of times,
to make myself feel okay I recall those childhood memory chimes.
You expression of anger kill me the most,
when your burning eyes makes me roast.

Everyday abuse I cannot hold that,
your words unintentionally hurt me I told that.
But you never changed for your daughter,
literally your words are killing like murder and slaughter.

My childhood was incomplete in your absence I know that,
I just try to forget those things I missed,
I'm done with you behavior gossips and chit chat,
I wonder what was the last time you hearfeltly kissed.

Still figuring out what type you are like a narcissist, egoist or sociopath,
I always question myself and wonder that.
What if you didn't existed?
my problems would have been solved and half listed.