Disappear

Disappear.

I’m invisible but I am near.
I look for you in places you wont be found.
I’ve met you, in places its impossible to meet.
I’ll never meet the you who loved me again...
Only the you who strangled me.
Who wants to feel nothing anymore.
I wait for you.
I sought the torture I knew.
I was worth an apology.
When did we begin to die.
I could not see.
Were you in as much denial as me.
Are you guilty.
Am I supposed to be strong.
I was for too long.
I want you to know
I don’t cry anymore,
Not like I did when you walked out the door.
My soul is dry.
My eyes are green.
You could do no wrong, even when you were mean.
The most beautiful thing, I had ever seen.
We never were.
Never have been.
Do you ever look for me in places, I wont be found.
Do you find me in your dreams and wake to see I’m not around.