Disappear

Didn't think it would come to this
Can always call it quits

It's always like a swing set
I'm the kid that falls

Feels like im under water
But I'm breathing just fine

Then why am i the one left crying 
Why is this world beating me down

Always the one to fall
Is it just for the muse

You're my worst distraction
Its my downfall

It might be the end
But it's just the beginning

All of these imperfections 
everything that's precious 

can this make you happy
Will you ever love me

Could i just disappear completely
It'll never be a love song

Ill never get that chance
Maybe the feelings are long gone

So its better to just pretend to
Like that ghost in your eardrum

It cuts me into pieces
When the heart is broken

It's like every time you try to leave
Something keeps pulling me back

Hopeing itll send me a sign
Take me away from the light

Why is it always a act
I can be so mean

Always stuck in this one scene 
Never going to be

Would you even care 
If I ran far away

This is just so obnoxious
Wish I can be unconscious 

All of this so hopeless
Can't even focus

It's always like this
Would it even matter

That i feel like im under water
But I'm breathing just fine

Just to stay up float 
I tell myself all these lies 

Hopefully i don't go insane
It's a very thin line

But in the end
I might be just fine

But this heart is broken
It was open for yours for the taken

Guess now I gotta be faken
Just to make it one day

Without all of this aching 
Wish I can just say

But I'll be that kid that falls
From the merry go round

Maybe one day I might be found
So now I dont make a sound

All of this thin air
Might not feel fair  

Time to leave this despair  
Time to disappear