Disbelief

Ladies and gents
Fraudulent freaks
Enthralled by shades
Tints and the different
Ways to enforce ridiculous
Rules we blindly implement
First went commen sense
Closely followed by selfless intents
Creating a cruel crowded
Public cesspool
Every creature forced to be a
Tenant of this depressing residence
Obvious evidence of selfishness
Scattered and strewn
Completely careless and
Ignorantly oblivious to
The fact we must share this
Sacred space seemingly shrinking
Crowded by ideas and hypotheses
Stinking up this tired
Underestimated bleak
Habitat
Careless and near sighted
Not knowing this is all we have
There will be nothing after it
Teamwork and commrodery
Would make life a little more
Tolerable if everyone alive
failed to
Constantly bother me
With there stale views
And idiotic ideals
Mindnumbingly uninteresting
Thoughts of suicidal plots
I begin questioning
Patience is pushed relentlessly
Testing me
Why must incompetent
Individuals test my quest
When I'm unable to rest
I debate if I was born
Luck or blessed
Maybe by an all powerful
Unseen entity
Composed of simplistic complexity
We are unable to see
This is why I can't believe
Faith twisted by
The mortal mind
Of an abnormal guy
Frustrated and mystified
Waiting behind kids crying
At the end of
An unending line counting
Time needing something solid
To form a concrete belief
An Undeniable sign
To finally grasp a
Chunk of truth that
Occupies all of my mind
Hurting my mental state
Feeding my flooding thoughts
Of worthless insignificance
That compound and escape
In the form of hate
So sick of
The silent debate
Repeated and overanalyzed
Countless times
Never discovering what I need
To find
concentrating
As i Vigorously channel
Every cell inside
Creating chaos and
Confusion
bursting
Brain cells leading
To intracranial bleeding
All is blurry
As my eyes become blind
And an intense burning
descends my
Crooked spine
Shake it off and
slip into sleep as
I resign and recline
Just in time
To lie to loved ones
Stating I'm fine
Denying and lying
As inside im decaying
Dying
So sick of faking
False feelings
I lose faith
And long to give up
Useless trying
Finally succumb to
Realizations that
Blind belief is
Senseless and dumb
Pretending to pray
But wanting to run
And grab ahold of
Something or someone
In my physical world
Alone I crumble into
A pile fetally curled
Never to be cured just
A free floating figment of
Lost light forgotten
in this dark world