Dodging The Bullets

No matter what I do
I'm told I'm not good enough
I almost think sometimes
This is the definition of love
It hurts my soul when I feel I disappointed
I try so hard , but the blame I'm always appointed
My heart it breaks 
When you call me outside my name
I'm down on my luck
Because I'm just not good at this game
And you feel the warmth of other men's arms
And tell me I didn't love you right
Inside my mind it's raining
And I can't help but toy with the idea of suicide
You think because your a women 
It doesn't hurt when you hit me
It hurts me deep inside 
But your right it's not physically
I am not stupid, or dumb
But told I am quite often
But I have beat myself in the skull
So much I fear it's soften
So what is abuse?
If it's not what your doing
I'm a gentle man
But a storm is steady brewing
I hate that I've let you hurt me
All of you throughout my life
I'm glad I met mrs. right
And not made any of you my wife

By LukeCoomer (c)