Emotionally Unavailable

From now until the end of All time
I'll be wondering what could have been
if you would have been mine
Its not fine with me watching something be nothing
knowing it should be
Currently we're on uncommon ground
Ghosts of you are always around
Every where I look but don't make a sound
Silent eyes that glow in the darkness
Empty hole where I think my heart is
Suicides my best option for stopping what you started
Heading to an ending pretending it isn't my beheading
Freely forgetting humans that used to be morbidly morphing into monsters
Bottom feeders feed your fears manufacturing a vision that isn't yours
Remind me that hate resides behind closed doors
Open minded misguided misfits compromise legit missions
Missing bigger pictures staring down pistol barrels
Miss when life was fairy tales and Christmas Carol's
What happened to happy endings
Ended in a collosal collision
killing the genuine
leaving the dead living
Leaving me feeling ungrateful on thanksgiving
Angst ain't a natural ailment
Captures the corner of one's soul
Increasing the preventable death toll
Losing control to something new controlling
Consuming consciousness constantly
Fucking up concepts
Removing truth
taking sure words out of context
Inaccurate account of activities
Impacting exactly what was avoided in vain
In time we'll see how it feels to feel insane
Who isn't in pain these days
We pray when it's convenient
God knows your promises are dishonest and when you don't really mean it
Defeated due to repeatedly being mistreated
Miserable men missing their marbles
wake up in the midst of their life
fucking frightened and startled
Started a strange chain reaction
Who can answer why unnecessary events happen
The shit we're in continues to deepen
Unaffected seeing weak men drowned in the deep end
Breathe in noxious toxins
chemical burns scattered sporadically
Spawning disgusting offspring miraculously
Distance is growing in more than just memory
Mentally ill equipped
Unable to deal with shit
Emotionally unavailable