FALL

I lied when things got tough 
Convinced myself that I was enough 
My tears were masked by the rain
Life turning into a storm, alone with all of this pain
I felt anger pushing through every vein 
I felt like I had nothing to lose or anything to gain
If I could go back I would change it all 
I would stop myself from the biggest fall
I struggled through some days, felt like I had no one by my side 
I lost my confidence, my hope, my love, my pride

I went through a dark chapter in my life
Convinced myself there wasn't any light 
Pushed people away
Yet i wanted them too stay
Bottled up emotions, kept them in my head 
Not a single word came from my mouth, nothing said
Years passed, I knew I needed to speak
If I didn't do it now I would be more weak
I spoke, it was the best decision I ever made 
I no longer pushed people away, they stayed
I felt beautiful in my own skin 
I no longer bottle things up, I let people in

My biggest life lesson was not to stay silent 
It helps no one at all 
I picked myself up, even when i wanted too 
                                             
                                                                    Fall.