Fragments of a Broken Soul

Trying hard
To heal the emptiness inside
My mood swings like a pendulum
I'm trying to hide
Behind the created ego of a thousand faces.
So many different people
Mocking me and I know
that it's all just a game
But it hurts still, you know.
I am searching for a soul
For a specific kindred spirit,
Sometimes I feel close
But lose out just as I get near it.
I know I need to love myself 
But I saved my love for you.
I was hoping you'd reciprocate 
Then we'd be one, not two.
But I can't change who I am
And nobody should ever ask me to,
but if you came along and took my hand
I know I'd do anything for you.
But who can hold out for a ghost? 
That perfect angel in my mind
the one I love the most.
I wonder if he's waiting for me
But I'm blinded and I cannot see.
Just twist the box and open it
but what if I'm Pandora and it all turns to shit?
I know I'm only limited by my mind
And believe me I'm reading the signs.
When a heart breaks 
It doesn't just break you
It shatters the world around you too.
It's hard to pick the pieces up
Sometimes we need a helping hand.
Is that so hard to understand?
Am I so unattainable to reach?
Must I suffer forever
In this box surrounding me?
Perhaps I'm doomed to go solo
Surely I deserve love too, don't you know.