Fucked Up

When I feel unwanted I stop trying
I no longer give you attention
I no longer communicate 
When you finally acknowledged me
It was far too late

I’m scared because what if
No one ever makes me feel the way you did
I search for you in another person 
But they never compare to what we had
Back at the very start
Back before it all went south
Before you broke my heart 

I thought you would have the same heart as me, that’s exactly what fucked me up
You made me feel like I wasn’t enough
Texts send never read
You’re not wanting to be next to me in bed
What did I do
I never stopped trying
I fucking loved you

There’s no regrets 
It’s happened and it’s done
You were a lesson
For that I am thankful