Gods Grace

Why did you leave
why didnt you stay
why did you take my innocence away
why did you say you would protect me 
when you never actually did 
how could you do that 
I was just a kid

I was scared of the dark
I was scared of monsters
that were hidden 
under my bed
only now im older 
im scared of the monsters
that live inside of my head
I tell myself 
God has a plan
only I dont see 
what kind of joy does it bring to God 
when he keeps punishing me

I want to feel like one day
things will heal 
yet the past still lingers
it still feels real
will God heal me
will he fix my soul 
or will he leave me lingering
in this permanent black hole

God please forgive me 
for all of the mistakes
for I do believe 
I am God's Grace.