Goodbye Letter

You never contacted me 
You never did call 
Did you have love in your heart for me
Even a tiny bit, at all
Did you ever wonder what I did with my life
Wonder if I’m doing alright 
Did you ever think about 
My progress in school 
You came back in my life 
Playing the fool 
Acting like you made no mistakes 
Yet begging for a relationship 
When it’s too late

You called me names a mother never should
If I could erase you from my life, I would
I would’ve never let you see my vulnerability 
I would’ve never let you get close 
It’s that, that hurt the most
I let you see me cry 
You sat and asked why
You got hurt when I said it was
Because of you 
My anger and hate for you, grew 
It grew stronger and aggressive
Messed with my head real bad 
Made me feel anxious and nervous 
Made me feel unworthy and sad 
You left again yet this time 
It feels different 

I used to come back to you and apologize 
I don’t actually know why 
It was always you in the wrong 
It was always you all along 
Yet we can get addicted to something 
That ruins us
My mum was always the drug 
I went back too and I need to stop 
One thing to remember though mum 
Is every tiny inch of pain you bought to me
Will never be forgot.