Happy alone

I don’t know what I want is it ok to be alone
I love my own company yet sometimes want someone to hold
Onto trusting words, smiles and the feel of a presence 
 I think I’d be someone else trying to be better at my own existence
I think I’d be a fake and not good enough 
It sounds like too much energy and he might call my bluff
Trying to be someone I’m not to please them around
Losing myself in the process,  not gaining, nothing found 
Is it ok to stay single i think they may judge
Is it not ok to be happy by yourself is love and marriage a must

Can I live a life alone but what happens when I retire
No grandchildren or family visits sitting by the fire 
Is that selfish wanting these thing but no desire to start the memories today
Is it ok to live a different life and walk a different way