happy birthday miss invisible!

today's my birthday..... I should be happy right?..... today's the day we celebrate the day i was born......the day my mother and father waited a whole 9 months for......but so far all it's been is a day to remind me that I was an unplanned mistake...... that my father was physically angry when he found my mother to be pregnant...... how my mother contemplated exterminating me...... how my siblings believe that if I wasn't born my parents may have stuck together....... I say thank you a million times as people that pretend to care once a years post on my wall.......I call my family in hopes they would be happy to hear from me at all....... but instead I get anger and irritation....... rushed off the phone because the sound of my voice irritates even my own mother to the point she can't speak.......my own mother...... her approval..... the only thing I've ever wanted......but never will she give it to me...because you see.... I am merely a mistake to her...... the one who should've never been put on earth..... I know I'm here for a reason..... and I have learned to be on my own..... but today on what's supposed to be my day couldn't we all just pretend?? today's my birthday..... today's the day we are supposed to celebrate the day I was born.......... I am supposed to be happy right??........