Hope 2 dream

While I lay awake I listen 2 noise as residents go by
i look around but all I see is nothing just the bed I lay In
so I close my eyes and Hope pray 2 God asking 4 more
then I think Wat of kids stuck in middle of war hopen 2 live 2 c smother  day
am I selfish as I've got Hostel 2 stay in with 1 dinner 1 sandwich available 2 me
I suddenly feel guilty r I'm not sure if it's fear as I know at any moment with 1 flick  of a pen me and r my partner r out the door
for reasons we cannot control 6 Mth bed extended if management decide
I stay in my room my partner does to an were told mix with residents some more
then we try as its a wet house alwAys sum1 to get smart pissed  up
defend me tats Wat u do then if u win your told leave a day to a month on streets u can't win cold nights wAlking around no place 2 go so u sit on bk stairs in apartment block summers silently not making a sound as u not want 2 feel the bitter air cut trew  u r the rain soaked ur clothes socks and feet all u long 4 is a decent meal a warm bed not sure how long I can hope no more this government need a crisis plan 4 I am not racist my man is from a far  away land but if government can't house their Irish citizens why accept more seems 2 me Irish ppl r now least priority of all 
us Irish wen we fall  we fall  hard work 4wecant  escape 2claim welfare housing costs in a different state 
so I hope tat god hears my cry for him2 reconise indeed ppl like me for a miracle 2 live actually live  accomplish a home a place 2 call my own not continue to exist not living just going 1 day 2 next wAtching the wourld go by only prospects r 2 try not b noticed and remain in chains in a wet house hostel though i dont drink a drop noise arguments I feel I cud lose the plot
yet this is my lot so I dream small and remain in hope but it's dinen so fast some days I think I will not last so here I am laying  in a bed no wardrobe living frma bag remembering children caught up in war not allowing my self to think about this at all for I'm 35 homeless and I've got feckall
 mad 2 want more is it bad to want 2 choises of food all my belongings I lost Wat I wear I do not like I haven't  a choice all I've got is HOPE..

tis is 1st attempt will read and fix it