I Don't Wanna Let You Go

I can't take this pain anymore,
It sucks because your the only one who I adore.
I hate feeling this way,
There's so many things that I wanna say.
I fucking hate loving you, I'm such a fucking mess,
I say to myself what the fuck are you doing? He'll never love or want to be with you Tess.
I want to spend the rest of my life with him,
Without him my whole life seems pointless and grim.
What can I do to possibly change his mind? 
There has to be something, the answer is something I have to find.
I'm fucking dying without his love,
I just wish he saw me as enough.
Why does his love always bring me nothing but pain?
A better question is why can't he just feel the same?
He is the most amazing person that I know,
This is exactly why I can't and don't wanna let you go!