I Remembered What Love Was

I think too much
I can hardly sleep at night,
Wake up at three in the morning
Still feeling the pale moonlight.
I drink too much
I can hide all my fear from sight,
I’ve built all my walls up
But something about you feels right.
You’ve been breaking them down piece by piece
I’m a complicated girl to say the least
But I know there’s something more
When I look into your eyes
I see how the ocean meets the skies.
I don’t want to share you
But I know I have to
I just have to learn
They all need you too.
At first I couldn’t bare you
Your perfection made me insecure
You lifted me and when we’re far away
I love you more.
Thank you for all that you share
For sharing what you know
I just love hearing you talk
So please talk slow.
I want to know all your secrets
And to trust you with mine
And although there’s much to work on
In our hands we hold time.
One day I will find the strength
To fix the mess I’ve made
My life just seems too hard sometimes
And I want to scream and shout.
When I hear all the lies
We can’t hide behind our shadows
That’s no longer a relevant disguise.
I make things worse than they are
And I know I shouldn’t complain,
Many people go through far worse
Which makes me feel worse again.
I don’t want to be selfish.
Is it wrong that I want you to myself?
Even just for one moment
You make heaven out of my hell.
You gave me a reason to live,
The will to fight on
With everything you give
And I learned how to be better
As I watched what you did.
I knew all I needed was you
Ever since I figured it out,
I don’t know what you want
But I’m trying hard to seek this out.
 
Nobody makes my heart flow
Like your touch does.
I looked in your eyes and remembered
What love was.