I should've kissed him

So many memories, times spent together, wether we like or not,
It used to be fun, it used to be hot.
He is older and it felt kinda wrong but
So many moment when the thought crossed my mind
but so many nights where I convinced myself not to do it
cause he's not the one, I know. But, I like him so.
There's this look in his eyes sometimes, just trying to get me closer,
Moments where I didn't feel good and I realize now that,
I should've kissed him more times than I have because it would've made me feel better than I was.
Maybe we would've figured out a way to make it work
But I'm faithful and couldn't have done that to my heart.
We met many moons ago and it wasn't an easy journey.
I think of him sometimes, often, everyday... 
Impossible, forbidden love turned into strong friendship
It brings back some good memories, laughs and wheeps
And sometimes I think I should've let go and go to the other side
Cross the line and go with him.
Yes, now I know.
I should've kissed him.